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Flight 549 to Santiago

August 11, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

A couple months ago, on Mother’s Day, I wrote this post about mothers on the other side of the world who confront global giants like poverty and hunger and disease, every day.

A few days later, my husband and I traveled to the Dominican Republic to visit friends, just us…and our four kids.  We made our way through New York City on a 24-hour layover, to Santiago, and finally, Monte Llano.

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We lived a week of days there, amazed at beautiful mountains and perfect seas, captivated by welcoming strangers all around.

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I didn’t want it to end, most of the moments we lived there. Only the ones where I was dripping sweat and realized why every other girl had their hair pinned up.

Our friends took us along to visit families they’d been getting to know, whose children attend the school where they work. We were invited into homes with dirt floors, chickens running around, cats to control the rats. Roofs were made of scrap metal and ripped sheets served as walls.

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Of course, we thought about the way we live like kings and queens, in our beautiful homes with so much food we beg to make it stop, and the ability to purchase all sorts of amusements.

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But it wasn’t their material poverty that made the biggest impression. It was their genuine happiness, in the midst of few choices, little food, and without all our possibilities.

It was the way they welcomed us in, two families with a grand total of nine children.

It was the community we witnessed, the kind of I-need-you-and-you-need-me we don’t often see here.

It was the little things ~ the abundance of playmates, tales of adventure on the island, toys made from twigs and imagination.

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Walking around, thoughts swirled over taking up my cross to follow Jesus. Is this what it looks like to lose life in order to find it?

The transformation in our friends was evident. They gave up their life to move there, in a lot of ways, and it hurt. But by the time we arrived, they had a whole new life–there, but not dependent on that place. And they don’t want to trade it, ever, because they have lived that beautiful life. They want more.

This doesn’t happen only by leaving all your stuff behind and living abroad or working in a mission. It just happened that way for them.

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I continue to revisit this beautiful place in pictures and memories. I wish I had words for the meaning and significance of the experience. But I can barely find words to summarize the trip, let alone the abundance of thoughts it sprouted.

For now, there is no resolve. I am left with what is: a book of photos, an amazing memory, a conversation started, much to learn, people to care for, and God above it all. For today, this is enough.

What about you? When and where has your spirit been moved by some distant place? 

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God Writes the Gospel

August 5, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

From her bedroom window, the full moon glows. Rays bounce to the north, south, east, and west~painting a cross of light in a dark sky. Supermoon circles large in the center of a bright, shiny, old, rugged cross.

I sit on the corner of her bed, watch my sleeping beauty breathe, and stare at the moon.

God writes the Gospel not in the Bible alone, but also on trees, and in the flowers and clouds and stars. ~Martin Luther

Tonight God writes the gospel on the moon. And oh, I need this gospel

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Most days, I gulp down living water and some, I savor. But then I run through days, where the gospel feels lost on me. Some days start on such a high note, but tangle up in chaos and disappointment. Others, I have to beg myself to get up on top of it all.

But instead, I often feel irritated. And when I finally sit down for a few minutes without little people asking for more pieces of me, I ask God really mature and selfless questions.

Why won’t they ever leave me alone?

And then I laugh, since this is the arrangement I put in place to begin with.

The night of the super-cross, it hit me. The way of the moon is to wax and wane, and the light can all but disappear sometimes.

My light can all but disappear, in the jumble of kids and school and however many things to do. In the way I react to their childishness and stubbornness and rips and smudges and everywhere-messes. I want to remain in Him, to be a light that shines His love day after day, even when it’s only for my little crew.

I also want to be left alone sometimes, and I want my house to look nice, mostly always, and I want to stay on schedule and my goodness, I want to COMPLETE things when I start them. And so, sometimes, my light goes out or at least, gets really dusty. How is it so hard to remain in Him, when I do take the time to begin in Him?

That night, I saw Him cross the moon, and my heart welled up with this visible shot of gospel. I pondered the weight of His cross and held tight to the depth of His love for me, right in the middle of my frustrations and failures. And it was bright, y’all.

God writes the gospel not in the Bible alone. Are you looking for it? Where has He written the gospel for you to see?

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Know~Love~Lead Me…

July 7, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

I’m not sure how you can hear something so many times and still not apply it to yourself. But I know you can.

To apply yourself to words like these is to trust the voice of God above roars of the accuser, the world’s constant whispers, and life experiences that tell you otherwise.

I do! I do now, and here’s my challenge to you…

Find yourself here, in these words. See yourself this way:   

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. (Psalm 139, NIV)

I love the picture this scripture draws. Can you imagine God’s hands, weaving you together like delicate embroidery? He made you to the depths of you, inside and out. His eyes saw you; He formed you.

What do you do with that? There’s really only one thing to do when we truly get it…praise God. Praise God because His works—because you—are wonderful.

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All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.

God has written your days, and He wrote you into this moment in history. But there’s more. He thinks of you more than you understand.

Once again, He draws a picture. Imagine you’re at the seashore, standing on warm, white sand. You bend down, scoop up a handful, and let it slip through your fingers. Each of those tiny grains of sand represents one of God’s thoughts of you. But look around, as far as you can see. God’s thoughts of you—outnumber the grains of sand.

Oh, and by the way, when you wake up each day, He is still thinking of you.

The psalm shifts then, and David turns to the trouble he faces, wicked men who pursue him. He expresses both impatience with his situation and loyalty to God. He wants God to just wipe out the wicked, but his heart softens when he ends with this prayer:

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me, and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

David goes to God, asking to be searched (for hidden sin) and tested. Because God knows Him better than he knows himself. He says, Prove that I trust You. And lead me Your way.

Friends, we are known—loved—understood—planned—exposed—and thought about. What do we do with this?

Praise God.

Repent.

Be led (by Him).

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Know Me, Love Me…

June 7, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

We all long to be known, and loved.

And we already are. I wonder why we don’t grow up feeling this, or feeling it enough.

As we age, questions surface. Who am I? Why am I here? What’s good about me?

Life answers harshly. Kids can be mean sometimes. We get left out. People misunderstand. Someone important leaves. We had reasons to make those conclusions, it’s all my own fault. We believed things about ourselves we would never voice aloud.

But these beliefs we adopt as children can become pillars we build life on.

Of course, those pillars will not stand. They always break down somewhere. But God shows up with a solid foundation. One that answers our deep need to be known and loved.

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Imagine David sitting down, alone, asking God, Do you really know me? Do you care?

The Spirit of God whispers, “Oh yes. I know you, David.” He goes on, and David writes all God speaks to his heart, for the rest of us.

You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.You hem me in, behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Psalm 139:1-6, NIV

God-knows-me, he wrote. Not “God knows everything”, but He knows me.

God has dug into your insides and uncovered every detail. He knows you more than you know yourself. He knows your ups and downs, when you’re out and at home, awake and asleep, and everything in between.

God knows your thoughts—and understands them—even before you give them words. Even when you don’t understand what you are feeling or why…He understands. He perceives…from afar, this speaks of motives behind thoughts. It’s a little scary, isn’t it? That He knows every attitude of our hearts? And yet He chose to make you and me, and to know.

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day for darkness is as light to you. Psalm 139:7-12, NIV

Maybe God’s omnipresence troubled David. But as he works through this idea, that there is nowhere I can go, apart from God, he sees this: God’s presence everywhere in this world is for good.

God’s hand guides and holds us up. Even in darkness, in times we run from Him, or painful trials we barely make it through. God sees through the darkness in our lives to the other side, to all the other sides. He is drawing us toward Him in ways we cannot see.

I pray today we live aware that He knows us deep down, and cares to stay near. That we respond with love for Him, and praise Him for all He is and does, and then we live our lives at rest IN HIM. There is nothing I need more, this day…

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Before I Became a Mom

May 12, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

Before I became a Mom, I didn’t look so closely.

There were kids on commercials wearing rags, emaciated. I looked away, hoped there were only a few.

But there are many I’ve learned, too many needy little ones—hungry and thirsty for food and love and belonging.

Little eyes that burn through me, these line the landscape of my dreams, and I question: What is this, God, which you are stirring? What can we do to help? How can we be the change the world needs?

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Before I became a Mom, it was pretty easy to avoid poverty, this global giant. But once I gathered little ones in my arms who knew me from the inside out, I understood…many are in desperate need, and so we are all in need.

This world is broken down in ways which allow our smallest to suffer and die, parentless and hungry. This is my problem. And it is yours. We would never let it happen to a neighbor down the street, but what about across the world?

Before I became a Mom, I never considered what life might be like for Mamas on the other side.

And then I tracked wet diapers on hospital charts and fought giving up parts of me and packed up diapers and discovered I would be hereafter late to everything. And then I carried burdens I thought I could fix and calmed irrational fears and fed and trained and cheered and woke at 3 AM too many times for too many different reasons.

Now I know what it is, to be a Mom. To nurse a tiny bundle to life. To reassure and answer questions (hundreds and thousands of questions, oh my!). To celebrate successes and teach them their great worth.

Both here and there, the heart of motherhood is the same: simple, complicated love. Love that hurts like laying down a life. Love that braves the scars of sacrifice, that suffers long and dies to self repeatedly, for the sake of others.

But what if we poured out all the love we could, and the stronghold of poverty kept us from providing even basic needs for our children? What if this was all we could see—malnutrition and high rates of child mortality?

Will you join me? Because WE MUST FIGHT THIS. We must join hands and stand up (now) and use our Mommy brains. We must not get overwhelmed with all the horror in this world, but keep eyes fixed on Jesus, and carry these neighbors close to our hearts. Might we look for ways to live less extravagantly so that others can just live? Click here (http://www.compassion.com/babies.htm) to learn how each of us can help mothers and babies live and thrive this Mother’s Day. Join me!

He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; He gently leads those that have young. Isaiah 40:11, NIV

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