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The Gift of Angelie

April 15, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

She entered this world like Skylar, two pretty little summer babies born the same day. She went home to a simple wooden house with a thatched roof, while Sky came home to her carpeted, pink bedroom, with 10 fancy wooden letters announcing “Skylar Kate” on the wall above her crib and monogrammed dresses in her closet. Worlds apart, these two, under the same blue sky.

These birthday buddies run around outside in dresses and love to play Mommy with their dolls, to play games and create crafty masterpieces. They help wash laundry, make their own beds, ask loads of questions, and they dream.

Angelie runs errands and keeps the house clean while her Mama works farmer’s fields for less money each month than we make in a day. And not only us, but most all of us over here.

It’s a hard life there, on the hillside, with just a Mama and baby sister, needing clean water, better nutrition, steady employment, and education. We have these in abundance, these life-changers that could turn their lives around.

In pictures, Angelie wears little pink flip-flops and a red plaid sundress, and a smile that turns my life around.

Poverty voids hope, yet Angelie has the sparkle of hope in her eyes, the twinkle of dreams.

Compassion International presents this little angel with the gift of hope. The center she attends each week feeds nutritious meals, and teaches her how to brush and care for teeth. There she plays soccer, memorizes Bible verses, and gets tutored in her schoolwork. She learns to write letters, and we get to be the lucky recipients of these, along with her drawings, little pieces of her world we treasure.

At this center run by Compassion, and the local church across the world, she is safe, she is loved, and she learns about God.

God, who wrote a plan for the whole world and chose her to be a part of it.

God, who knit her together inside her Mommy and hung the heavens and told the ocean how far it could go.

God, who created Angelie, created you and me, for such a time as this.

When I look at this little girl, the words of Isaiah 58 sound off inside me again,

If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness…

It is this that brings me low, turns my thoughts away from the cruelty of poverty I’ve been staring at, brings me face down before God. I’ve been praying for this girl and her family and for the church there, these brothers and sisters of mine, to love our “little sister” well.

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But some days it strikes me how much more WE, as in me, myself, and the great big church of Jesus, need the prayers~for we hold the Power and the resources to come together and loose the chains of injustice and set the oppressed free.

But we are just so darn busy, living lives we have been given. Yes, we love people around us and give money to the church and share the gospel when we think someone is interested~but how many of us would say we spend-ourselves-for-the-needy? How may of us could say it?

This is the call I wish to live up to. To live out the whole gospel, not only the part that is easy to accept and build a pretty life around.

There’s more for me to do, more for all of us to do, and I am praying we will come together and care and stick our necks out for the oppressed and prove Who we follow with our checkbooks and credit card statements or lack thereof, and with our calendars and our attention, and spend our lives on their behalf.  

If you, too, wish to spend yourself on their behalf, this is one amazing and life-changing way you can do this: www.compassioninternational.com.

Sponsor a child today, and begin a relationship that will rock your happy little world. 🙂

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For My Good

March 25, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

Have you ever held out hands to God, and offered Him your life?

What conditions did you attach? What pieces did you stash away, hoping God would not touch?

I’ve been saying, anything Lord, I will do whatever you want.

But please, please, please don’t do this…or that.

Or I’ve been afraid to say anything, Lord. In my life, I’ve watched friends move to far-away lands to serve God and struggle hard. I’ve also watched friends love what I could never imagine loving. I’ve put arms around loved ones who mourned the loss of a baby, said goodbye to a friend, a Mama, who died far too young, listened to servants of Jesus recount suffering, and witnessed the stress of serving the poor and loving hard people.

And I’ve been afraid. I don’t want all that. My life has been easy—I mean, this life is so good, do we really want to mess that up?

We’ve had good health, we have four amazing kids, we’ve never struggled to make ends meet. We have great friends, who we love having in our home, and when younger, I would have called this house we live in a mansion. We even have family close by…rare for young families in this area. There have been difficulties, yes, but overall, my life causes me to say, Really, God? I have done nothing to deserve all this!

And that’s true, I have done nothing to deserve this. As if we all deserve to be right where we are in life. As if our missionary friends “deserve” to get sick and have unfulfilled needs and people stealing from them. As if anyone deserves to lose a child, or a Mommy. As if I deserved a good life, but my friend deserved a hard life. As if we all deserve to eat fancy recipes and shop at our favorite stores, while they deserve to wear rags and have tummies swolen with hunger.

It’s a distortion of God to think we are all just getting what we deserve. To think because we have done things right, we deserve good stuff. Or when suffering comes, it’s our payback. In our life, we try to do right, but the closer we get to Jesus, the more we see how sinful we are. You can see, from my thoughts above, what a wretched lover of self I am. I don’t want to mess up my good life, even if it means someone with little could have. Oh, yes, I’ll give to them, at least some. As long as I still have “enough”.

If we were given life based on what we deserve, my life would look entirely different and so would my hope for the future.

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But this idea of offering anything to God, it still bothers me. Because of this list of things I really want, or want to keep, that I don’t want God to mess with.

All my issues with God come down to fear and trust.

Which one will I give in to? Fear of all I might lose? Fear of not having what I think I need? Fear of losing my pretend control, or trust in God for everything?

In journaling about this, I thought, my Bible says “God works all things together for my good”, yet God and I often do not agree on the meaning of good. I opened Romans 8:28, and noticed I’ve twisted it a bit, and how easy it is for us to do that with God’s Word.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him…

That word good, the good God works for, is drawing us to Him. The good is closeness to Jesus. God is not interested in working out everything in our lives so that we think it’s good, happy, easy, safe, and enjoyable. WHAT?

Instead, He takes everything He allows in our lives, everything He will allow in days to come, what seems both good and bad, and He helps us love Him more through these. His goal is not our happiness, not our safety, not our amazing quality of life. Those never were His goals. He wants us to grow in love for Him.

You and me, friend, we were made to love God. And love means to die, to die to ourselves. Why, Christians, do we act like we were made to live happy, safe, comfortable, enjoyable lives? I am not saying we should not enjoy…God is for pleasure, but even our pleasure should draw us closer to Him, and I’m afraid often, it helps us ignore Him. It keeps us distracted and away from Him.

We were made to love God, not to build great lives, and hold on.

So today, this my prayer~that I let it all go, choose trust over fear, that I lay me down, and love everything He calls me to in this life, because I love Him.

Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow Me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for Me and for the gospel will save it. Mark 8: 34-35

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Beginning Again With the Gospel

February 18, 2013 By: Angela Parlin

In some ways, the gospel of Jesus Christ changed everything for me.

I had sinned, and even at age four, I knew. When I learned sin was lying, unkind words, living all about ME, and following what I wanted instead of what God wanted, I knew very much who I was. I was a sinner.

I accepted the truth about Jesus, what He did for me, how I needed Him. I asked Him to forgive me, called on His name for salvation, became part of the family of God, gladly because of His grace.

But then, I moved on…to being a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N.

I never purposely moved away from the gospel, I just kept moving forward, kept going to church, kept learning, kept trying to grow, kept focusing on my goals, kept doing. It’s not that I never go back to the gospel. When I take communion or celebrate Easter, I celebrate the gospel and its power, for a few minutes, or part of a day.

But the world of my Christianity has revolved more around this: What do I need to DO? What do I need to put off, and what do I need to put on? Without knowing it, I moved from the gospel toward trying to make myself look and feel and be “like” Jesus, studying the Bible to find what to do or not do, and asking God to pretty please, make it all happen in me.

Sometimes I do get swept up in Jesus’ love, but on regular days, my walk with God is more about what He wants ME to do than what He already did.

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In his book, Gospel, J.D. Greear says the church has missed the gospel, that we understand it but do not experience it. He says we have the facts correct, but we see the gospel as the entry rite to Christianity, our ticket to heaven, when it should be the “source from which everything else flows,” a whole new way to relate to God, ourselves, and others.  This stops me fast, because I know, I haven’t completely grasped the gospel.

I have known, for some time, that God would ultimately be the One to create all the good in me, that I really couldn’t do any of it on my own. But wired deeply to do, I worked, I tried, I begged; I read the Bible hard, hoping for change. When life change didn’t come fast enough, I took matters into my own hands. I tried to manufacture it.

I say following Jesus is a relationship ~ not a religion…but I often live under religion’s condemnation, like a default I just keep going back to.

The whole problem with religion is, it is based on my performance. In the foreward to Gospel, Pastor/Author Tim Keller explains that religion says “I obey; therefore I am accepted by God.” But the principle of the gospel is, “I am accepted by God through Christ; therefore, I obey.” This difference is profound, and not something I had considered for long.

The last few years, I have read Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John, a number of times. Each time through, I am even more captivated by Jesus. At the same time, these books have sent me running to the gospel: Prodigal God (Keller), Repenting of Religion (Boyd),  Jesus + Nothing = Everything (Tchividjian), and now, Gospel (Greear). Each of these has been divine intervention, God calling me out of old patterns of thought into gospel truth.

I have much to learn, but I feel the gospel sink in deeper. I am loved by the King, and I can do nothing to mess that up. In Jesus, the light comes on, and I long for His gospel, for His love, how wide and long and high and deep it is…

 I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms.

Ephesians 1:17-20, NIV

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Is There More to Belief Than Believing?

December 27, 2012 By: Angela Parlin

I want to think every person who says they believe in God is a child of God who will be with Him in eternity. But His Word tells me this is not true, and this world only echoes that. I speak not as a judge of anyone’s heart, but as a friend who is concerned, and yes afraid, for the many who may “believe they believe”, but who simply do not know Jesus.

There is more to belief than believing.

You believe that there is one God—Good! Even the demons believe that, and shudder. (James 2:19)

The Bible says even demons believe in God, so then what does it mean to believe in Him to the extent that we possess eternal life, as in John 3:16?

For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him (Jesus) shall not perish but have eternal life.

Read the entire book of John, and you will see this theme: Jesus is God—You choose belief (light / life) or unbelief (darkness / death). Early in the book, anyone who had an encounter with Jesus ran off to find their friends and family and bring them to Jesus. They felt the life He gave them so deeply, they were forever changed…and they wanted nothing more than for their loved ones to have this river of life flowing out of them as well.

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Many people who saw Jesus perform miracles believed in Him, but John shows there is a difference between belief and BELIEF.

Now while He was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in His name. But Jesus would not entrust Himself to them, for He knew all men…He knew what was in a man. John 2:23 -25

Just a few chapters later, Jesus teaches this same crowd of “new believers”, but His teachings were too hard for them to accept.

From this time, many of His disciples (followers) turned back and no longer followed Him. John 6:66

True belief is more than saying you believe in God. It’s more than knowing about Jesus. It’s more than being part of a church or not doing certain things and making your life look Christiany.

True belief begins with faith that Jesus came to earth as a man who was also God (This is Christmas!), that He died to pay for all our sins and unite us with God, that He did not remain in the grave but walked out, and that He went back to heaven where He prepares places for His own until He comes again.

True belief causes believers to ACT on their belief. James 2:17 says Faith by itself, if not accompanied by action, is dead. True believers read God’s Word, talk to God and listen to Him, turn from sin, commit to God completely, surrender all they are and all they want ~ to all He is and all He wants.

Belief means “to be convinced of” and “to entrust oneself to“. This is the huge difference between the belief of demons or disciples who later turn away–and real, true, life-giving BELIEF. Entrusting yourself to God is not so simple as “say this, do that, and then do these”. In fact, we cannot even do it on our own…we need His supernatural help to believe this way!

So where do you go, what do you do if you believe Jesus was God but you do not trust Him to take control of your life yet? Or if that sounds a little hokey and you’re just not sure what you want? Let me leave you with some scripture to think about, and my prayers for you here in the background.

Ask Him to help you turn to Him, to help you follow Him, to help you truly believe…

Come near to God and He will come near to you. James 4:8a

But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Luke 11:9

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12

Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord. Acts 3:19

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God Did This

December 2, 2012 By: Angela Parlin

One of my favorite passages in the book of Acts takes place in Greece. Instantly, I imagine one of those “Greek Isles” calendars at the bookstore or the painted plate my sister picked up for me there. Maybe it didn’t look that perfect in Paul’s day, but nonetheless, in Acts 17, Paul waits in Athens, talking Jesus to anyone who will listen.

“Men of Athens! I see that in every way you are very religious. For as I walked around and looked carefully at your objects of worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: TO AN UNKNOWN GOD. Now what you worship as something unknown I am going to proclaim to you.

“The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. And He is not served by human hands, as if He needed anything, because He Himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. From one man, He made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and He determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.

“God did this SO THAT MEN WOULD SEEK HIM and perhaps reach out for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us.” (Acts 17:22-27).

God did this….made the world, you and me, decided when and where we would live and breathe…God did this—so that we would SEEK Him and REACH out for Him and FIND Him, and He is never far.

To seek is to go in search of, to look for, to try to find or discover. And yes, we must seek God a first time, a time of initial repentance and belief. We first turn toward God, but then a life of seeking begins, and isn’t this what living for God is? Seeking Him?

The journey of life, all of it–a reach for God.

Years back, I didn’t think much about seeking God. I felt like I “had him” already. I might have read right past this passage, thinking I’ve already done that, as if reaching for God was a one-time thing. I knew what to do and what not to do, yet in my heart, my love for Jesus was small. I was earnestly seeking, but not earnestly seeking Him. I ached with restlessness, desired greater purpose in life. And the answer to my ache was near.

It was in a book I read little snippets of every couple of days and in those rare quiet moments when the TV was off, the radio was off, and I was alone in my house, alone only as far as I could see. I whispered little prayers, “Lord, help me to love you more,” out of a heart that wanted to know the fullness of His grace but didn’t quite FEEL it.

All I can say for sure is this, He heard my not-so-fancy prayers, my simple requests, and He delivered. If we seek God and reach out for Him, we will find Him and the LIFE He offers.

Just two things I ask you to think through with me. This time of year, we reach full speed ahead for things to make us happy. We know they won’t make us happy, but we’re in the tradition of running after things. How can we seek God, how do we reach for Him and find life in Him instead?

Two, God has planned (or allowed) the details of your life, small and great. I know, sometimes the details pile on hard, but even then, He draws us close when we reach for Him. So I ask, what has He done for you lately??? Will you scratch down a little list with me, a list of life and breath and everything else He gives, and bask in the praise of Glory? And why not share a thing or two in the comments?!

Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters;

And you who have no money, come, buy, and eat!

Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost.

Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy?

Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,

And your soul will delight in the richest of fare.

Seek the Lord while He may be found;

Call on Him while He is near.

Isaiah 55:1-2, 6

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